Yes, ambiguity; my final Chemo session and the first day of the Caminho for Dermot & Roger, in whose journey I am inextricably linked, as they arrive in Seville, to begin the walk along the Via de la Plata.
A day of mixed emotions, too:-
“We are all just walking each other home -” Ram Dass
Predicted temperatures in Seville are quite high- 30* – hope they both stay cool and hydrated – and that their rucksacks do not become unbearable – I hope to relay their experiences via this Blog, over the next fortnight.
As for today’s routine? Hooked up at 08.45, Rinse, Hydration, Pre-Med of anti-sickness and steroids.Egg Mayonnaise sandwich! Then some Chemo.
Time, exactly Noon.
Have just started reading PATIENT:THE TRUE STORY OF A RARE ILLNESS by Ben Watt, the under – recognised composer and singer husband of Tracey Thorn, known for many years as the duo,”Everything But The Girl”.
Gripping account of his experiences in the early 90s , after becoming seriously ill, in hospital, in London.
Impressive recount of symptoms, suffering and near desperation – no one could come up with a diagnosis – told without any qualms and complete objectivity.
At least I know what’s wrong with me !
Over the last couple of weeks, I have felt more tired and lacking in energy.
Also, more irritable, though apart from the odd half silent curse, I try to keep even-tempered.
This was to be expected,although until you actually experience this lack of physical energy, as an “active” person, normally, it is still quite debilitating and takes a toll .
This is not meant as a moan as such, just trying to come to terms with what I hope will be a temporary Modus Operandii.
An example, working still the allotment, yesterday,I passed 2 1/2 hours, on my knees, contentedly weeding! But I confess to putting off digging trenches for potatoes that should be in the ground, around now.
Gardening….where optimism has to overcome reality!
An aphorism for Life?
In the immediate future, I have a CT Scan in a week or so, an appointment
with the Consultant on 2nd June.
For distraction, there is the possibility of a jaunt in the Motor Home, to North Yorkshire, next week.
Followed by a week of a Birthdays:- Tom, Vickee and Grandson, Jude, to celebrate!
Then the Acoustic Music Festival in Uttoxeter – A three day Bash with Dermot, in the Motorhome…Oh Yes , still ” Ensuite” in all matters!
Then, depending on the Consultancy, we hope to take up the offer of our friends’ apartment, in Sabinillas, nr Gibraltar, early June.
Any surgery should take place in the third week of June,which is anticipated to need a fortnight ,here in Good Hope Hospital.
So, a Cocktail of The countryside, Live music, Birthdays , Sea and Spanish sunshine is a consoling prospect and I am so fortunate to have family and friends to make this possible. And such a contrast to the Toxic elements that have been circulating my system, over the past two months.
Not forgetting the tremendous care from which I have benefitted, here in the Sheldon Unit, Good Hope Hospital.
“Our destiny is to run to the edge of the world and beyond, off into the darkness; sure for all our blindness, secure for all our helplessness, strong for all our weakness”
(St Thomas)
PS 4pm E from Roger:-
Hola John
Excellent flight to Seville and we have just checked in to our hotel.
We shall begin exploring shortly.
Regards
Roger
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